maybe the time is now for me to really consider which one i will choose to be my upcoming lover...... which one should i choose...... both have the criteria that i want but cant denied one did stand out from another..... thinking of asking advice but there it goes to the usual fong theng that are unable to make self decision.... and its hard to find a person who can explain it to me and not indirectly asking me to choose what being suggested..... my inner voice sometime yield to be rebelious.. so the more a person ask me to take that particular one. indirectly i will choose the one that are not suggested.... so its really hard for me to find a suitable person who can really give me the advice that i one..... maybe what being suggested is good enough for me but i knew well i wont really be able to control my self rebellion...
used to say... inner is more important than the outside... thought it was my principle for so long but actually did i really that cool not to really care the outer surface.... i guess not... i knew well the one that i should choose but a sense of pride, a sense of being unique hold me from really choose it.... between two... which one will i take....
sometime... something in my heart that are really hard to share out with people outside.. maybe they are hard to understand and will just label me as being stubborn... a gelaran i earn myself unconsciously and maybe the more people say the more i would like to show the stubbornest out..... but to be truely speaking.. sometime.. something that you say make me feel i'm being threatened and thus make me do things opposite of what being told just to prove you are wrong.... weird me but on the positive side that the uniqueness of a person i called myself....
theng
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