Revolution

The movie “Bodyguard and assassin” is a quite boring movie that I watch. Even though it touches about history, a subject that I like, I still found the movie boring. I can for sure guarantee that if I watch the movie alone or watch it in the video; I could never last the whole session. Can’t really caught the meaning in it cause the plot is scattered all over the place. Things that are obvious are all the things that happened are about the arrival of Dr. Sun, the man who changes China. Since I can’t run out from the cinema half way, I continue watch it till it end.
From it, I manage to get enlightened on some fact of life. Revolution, the word itself mean change and change surely include sacrifice. This is true by how many people that have dead in the process of revolution that being lead by Dr. Sun, a fact that no one can denied. Hmmm… this part make me wonder, what is the difference being the leader and the people. The leader thought about the change, proposed it to the people, and people who accept it fight for the change with their valuable life. The leader faces the most risk but always safe for the people exchange it with their life. There no much difference a leader and the people, both breaths the same air, take water and food for their survival and is called human. The differences in them is just the leader was the first one who thought about the change and dare enough to proposed it to the people. So everybody have the capability to be the leader but what make us different is we always take the safe route. There are some who have thought about change and changes here can be change in many aspects such like lifestyle, work and many more but very feel dare to take action to make it come truth for it involve great risk and moving from something that are certain to uncertain scared many soul.
Another point about revolution is it involves sacrifice. Change can never happen without sacrifice. Changes in China were exchange by the life of people but what about changes in our life. Isn’t it involving sacrifice too? I once heard someone say, to get something valuable, you need to sacrifice ten things that are valuable to you now. I found it quite true for I finally experience it. To get a degree, I sacrifice time with family and come to an unknown place, knowing very well my parents have grown old as days passed by and the time they can accompany me also getting lesser and lesser. Hmmm.. now only I realize that this is the sacrifice that I have make but did I try my best for the degree.. I doubt it… I never regret the times when I actually write the answer during the exam for I have done my very best but I regret the times that I can take to study but I didn’t… hahahahaha….. Something for me to change too.. I promised myself to be positive so I will cross out negative feeling now…
I need to make my sacrifice something that are worthwhile so I will do my very best… hope my revolution will be successful.. a revolution that will change the old me to someone new, someone that have self confidence, someone who would never scared to make decision…. I have make mine, how about you?

Bye Bye 2009

2009 is already in history and 2010 is in the making..... many fun things have happened in this short 1 month plus a bit break in Penang.... Well, other than work in the weekends, weekdays was fun... eventhough i didn't go out everyday, life in the house is not as dreadful as it seems.... i manage to catch up with games, chatting with friends and it's just great..... leaving behind books, assignment and some self confusion was a great relieve..... i also tried out many things in this short one month.....
First activity in penang is movie time with cousin sis which i have already post up.. this sem break was a very good time for me to bond back the relationship between me and cousin sis.... she sleep over at my house and we have pillow talk till 3 something in the morning.... going out shopping together and share life wisdom together.... such a great fun and she manage to ask me tried out new things... hahahahaha.... memorable momment is recently when she ask me to try out some dress.... fong theng in dress??? after so many years in boy looks??? with this type of body shape??? it got to be kidding right... hahhahahaha..... memorable.... it was the first time i see myself wearing a dress and more femine after like around 15++ years didnt wear..... hahahahahaha..... but still feel kinda weird wear a dress.... hahahahahaha......
then activity with friend is with sue lin in starwalk.... walking 10km.... fong theng walk 10km then go for work and stand for another 8+ hours... gotta be kidding.. but that what i did.... 10km walk was tiring but it was in that momment i learn some fact of life... the time during the walk also being use to ponder over some issue that i face.... really tired out.... and when i get to work time i can hardly bend my legs and walk limpingly... till the security guard also ask me what happened to my legs.... hahahhaahahaha... learn that if you join starwalk, don't go to work.... choose only one for human can hardly do both.... manage to finish the walk in 1 hour and 45 minute.... hahahahahaha...... but i would reconsider the so called short 10km i have in my thought if sue lin ask me to join again.... round the route with car.. anytime... i even offeen to be the driver... but to walk.... hmmmm.. got to double think.... hahahahaha.. anyway is a good things also la... i know my own ability from this walk and have tasted ang chou mi sua cooked by sue lin... haahhaahahahahahaha........ sorry for unable to attend the meetup with amy that time..... sorry.....
then time with family members is also bad.... we have so memorable things to do also... such like having dinner outside, shopping together, and many more..... time in penang is great this time....... hahahaha
lastly about myself...... this short one month holiday is super exciting... i learn more about myself and know what is the actual feeling i feel towards things in happened.... there are dissapointment, shameful but there are also happy, sastified momment.... i guess i do slowly grow up already after like terbantut all this while... ahahahhaha..... but i will tried to keep on with the characteristic that make fong theng is fong theng.....
hmmmmm..... going back sabah liao.... that also means holidays end liao.... hope 2010 would be a great year for me to explore and learn more..... hahahahhaahahahahaha.....