moment in penang and sabah.

this chinesse new year holiday was indeed a good one and i didnt regret even a single bit spending it in penang, my peaceful land. going out and online with no worries was really what i really need at that time... having great fun with soon ying visit, hanging out with amy, sue and hui wen and i learn a lot from all these gathering... thanks soon ying for coming to my place and have our chat together, telling me more about things in relationship pattern and the support you have give me.. thanks to amy and hui wen for all the advice and experiences you all share with me... dont worry, i will try to focus on things that i should and forget those that i should too...though its a bit hard i will move on.. one step at a time.. slow progression is better than no progression right... i hope i will confidently tell you my plan and how i see my self in 5 years from now the next time you ask me and not that disappointing words that i say.. to sue pula, thanks a lot... for the companionship, all the late night phone call and sms... hahahha.. i guess u know i wont stop and change unless i know the real reason for the problem, so thank you for pointing out all the point and analyzing it for me.. thanks for the surprises too.. hahahahhahaha...
well sabah life, hahahaha... i dont know... just knew many people asking me what have i done with my hair only.. hahahahaha... got to get going chasing the dreams i long abandon.... strive on.... hahahahahha....

A Chapter To Close

A wrong words that being say,
A wrong action that have been done,
Made a lot of differences,
And also is a path that have no turning back

for the words that have been said,
whether with or without intention,
has create a full stop
and prevented us to move forward together.

along the way,
many apologies that have been made,
does not ease away the pain that has been cause,
and it made the hurt hurts and the sorry sorrier.

many things that self thought,
would work out fine,
silence perhaps can calm both of us down,
but i guess i was wrong all the while.

silence made the distance grow further,
perhaps it hurt you more,
but, i really dont know what should i do,
other than sorry, its still a sorry.

maybe my desperation of asking you for forgiveness,
indirectly hurt you more,
but i really dont know what should i do,
for i am too scared to face the confrontation again.

for the last time,
i made an apologies to you,
sorry for everything that i have cause,
and sorry is what i can tell you.

i get what you mean,
i know what you want now,
i know what should i do,
and i fully know all these is cause of self action.

i will slowly walk out from your life,
slowly made everything back to the point,
the point where i am a nobody
in your life.

it hurt me,
but i think i deserve it,
if that is the best for you,
that is the thing that i will be doing.

its time,
no way else to mend it,
with a guilty and broken heart,
i walk out,
i close this chapter of my life.


theng,
5/12/2011
12.59am