Time For Some Serious Thinking

maybe the time is now for me to really consider which one i will choose to be my upcoming lover...... which one should i choose...... both have the criteria that i want but cant denied one did stand out from another..... thinking of asking advice but there it goes to the usual fong theng that are unable to make self decision.... and its hard to find a person who can explain it to me and not indirectly asking me to choose what being suggested..... my inner voice sometime yield to be rebelious.. so the more a person ask me to take that particular one. indirectly i will choose the one that are not suggested.... so its really hard for me to find a suitable person who can really give me the advice that i one..... maybe what being suggested is good enough for me but i knew well i wont really be able to control my self rebellion...
used to say... inner is more important than the outside... thought it was my principle for so long but actually did i really that cool not to really care the outer surface.... i guess not... i knew well the one that i should choose but a sense of pride, a sense of being unique hold me from really choose it.... between two... which one will i take....
sometime... something in my heart that are really hard to share out with people outside.. maybe they are hard to understand and will just label me as being stubborn... a gelaran i earn myself unconsciously and maybe the more people say the more i would like to show the stubbornest out..... but to be truely speaking.. sometime.. something that you say make me feel i'm being threatened and thus make me do things opposite of what being told just to prove you are wrong.... weird me but on the positive side that the uniqueness of a person i called myself....

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Time for a new Lover

its being some time since i wrote my previous post and hence update my blog... well... after all that i face, now that i look back on how i undergone what i label as hell week, i only got one word for myself..... proud... i still couldnt believe how i manage to pass the week... sleepless night, assignment all on dateline, few arguement with friends and many more... and still the week pass....
back to second thing.... My Lover..... Lover Lover.... why you leave me... i mengaku that i got the thinking of throw you, but i didnt do it... i just say only... but you.. you take it so real... not even give me a second chance to explain my love towards you... one action is enough for you to erase all the memories of our get together... and you are very cruel... you left and bring together with you all my important stuff.... all gone with you in momment i need.... but.. there is a but... i still love you.... you are always my first... nothing can replace this position you earn in my life and my heart.... i guess its time for you to rest and pass me to another... maybe you are tired... but rest assured you live in my heart...
now tht my lover have gone... its time for a new one...... i promise i care for you with my heart and i know my weakness... i will never repeat the same mistake but i do hope you will be a pleasant one.... hopefully your love is equal to mine if you cant love me more....
as for my hostel... i get into campus hostel... but there are still something i worry about.... then for my water tumbler... i will find 1 in penang..... hope will last.......