Super boring day and i knew something i never expect

Today is the first day I work for my semester break. this work can be counted my first job I work during short term break... usually I don't work for one or two month break... haiz...how time change.... last time work in starbucks, although not really happy but time flies there.... after a while break time and after break time do a few work and it's time to go back... now i work as a sales promoter and the time STUCK..... i've been wondering weather did my watch really alright or already spoill... cause the time dont seems to even moves... after what it seems like century or should i say a new milanium( sorry dont know how to spell) only break time.... haiz.. and to think i got to stuck there for around 1 month plus.... HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ......... GOD.. please help me out... make the time past faster than usual.. i dont mind going back sabah and start a new semester....
one more thing i know today is quite unexpected... even i also dont realise it... my manager or supervisor ( any post you give la ) the end of it is the person i report to wan la say i look very confidence during my interview times and that is why she hire me.... and do you know what i'm thinking at that time of the interview...... I was thinking .... haiya i just go for fun nia... just go so mom wont nag eventhough i sit at home cause already try the interview but fail but what i got is the opposite... should i be happy about it.... on one hand the salary can be my extra pocket money and comes in handy when i go back sabah but on the other hand I DON"T PLAN AND WANT TO WORK.... i'm back penang to enjoy my life here.... haiz....i look confidence when i doing things that i dont really want... is it real... friends please look out how i look when i say things or how my reaction when i face something i dont want.... hahaha ... then give me a comment about it.... hahahaha... you know ar... when he tell me this... You look confidence when i interview you at that time and i want you to look that confidence... My heart silently say... this is because i came for the interview just for the sake of coming to the interview and partly plan to destroy the chances you hire me...... Look like next time i got to sit infront of a mirror or video the whole process to see how i look when i do things that i not really want.... in addition i will also know how i look like when i feel confidence... cause i also dont know how i look like when i'm confidence... i just know i feel confident when i talk about the things i master.. that is... asking the question of why....haahahahahahaha....... tomorrow still got to face unmoving hour... oh god .. please help me...

Theng
21/5/09

Life is always changing...

Life is always changing... From good to bad, from bad to good.... Nothing is permanent... we can't and couldn't maintain the same because the world and we ourself change without we realise it... Every second, every minute, every hour, every day, evey year and every momment we are changing... Sometime we realise our change sometime we don't but one thing that is truth is we can't denied that we change.... we change in many ways.. maybe in our behaviour, our emotion, our physical, our mental and it is because of change we grow up. Because of change we became more mature.. But to some people, change is something very scary.. could it be that person is in a good condition and change means from something certain to uncertain.... But whatever it is, it is wise to accept and adapt to change... look at chage in a positive way and change will sure bring positive effect... this theory of change is easy but to really pratice it, it's not as easy as it seems.... I'm still learning and hopefully i will understand the law of change......

Torren...
13/5/09

Life In Penang..

Semester finally end... this coming new sem, i no longer a junior.... hmmm can not act childish anymore....... coming back in penang, life counted quite bored too.. nothing much to do.... online also don't know what to do... haiz....

A Tribute To Someone I Love...

Eight years has passed,
since the day you left,
You go in silent,
Without saying a single goodbye to me.

Everybody was in a great shocked,
The day you say goodbye,
For you are just so young,
So young and yet so lovely.

I'll always remember,
The time you protect me,
The time you take care of me
The time when we shared problem and laughter.

Till today I still don't understand,
I still don't believe,
Why you go,
Why you leave.

Your absence change a lot of people,
Some was good,
Some was bad,
But do you know,
Your absence change me a lot.

I scared to lose someone I love again,
I scared to lose someone I care,
And with all my strength that I have,
I try to maintain and forbid change.

But I slowly learn,
I can't maintain the same,
For people change as days passed by,
And the more I want to maintain,
The more they change.

Sometime I just feel very scared,
I worry a lot,
For I know my heart,
Wasn't strong enough to face,
Another ending,
Another goodbye.

Sometime I just wish,
It was a long dream,
And when I wake up in the morning,
I can see your laughter,
I can see your face.

Every time I heard people talking about you,
Every time I see your picture,
Every time I think about you,
There sure are tears in my eyes.

For I know you are someone,
So dear to me,
That it break my heart,
To know you're gone.

I hope heaven was not such a big place,
I hope god still will give me a chance,
To meet you one day.

Even though I never told you this,
Even though I didn't show you this,
I wish to tell you I love you very much,
I love you and i forever will....

Theng
2/5/09