A Wish

Some where deep down in heart,
there is always a wish,
the one wish that self very hope to happened,
but knowing well it won't

the wish to always be near,
the wish to always be there,
the wish to always be fist,
and the wish to always be the last

however life show a different things,
for there are something in life that cant be force,
with one side that are wishing
another that are rejecting.

accept and move on,
everybody say it,
its very easy to say,
that simple fact that everybody knows

but for self,
was it that easy to just accept,
and move on,
i've tried and still trying.

it's hard when all the norms,
no longer is the norms,
when the fun and closeness,
that once had,
begin to fade away with time

accept and move on,
this is what the heart told the self,
but something deep down,
a rebellious voice shouting to be heard

i have tried,
i have done all i can,
do you think its what i want,
i wish to, to forget and carried on,
but the feeling just won't subsidies.

its a new wound,
that replace the old one,
what funny is,this wound is self who open it
without self realize it.

it takes 3 years,
for the old one to fully heal,
how long will this heal,
longer, shorter, nobody knows.

to be honest,
there is still a tiny little hope,
that we might be indeed together,
that u will and can accept me.

knowing this wish in heart,
self know that there are small hope,
a hope that might increase the time,
to truly forget and continue on in life

sometime what self know and what self hope,
completely contradict with each other,
knowing if one success, another will suffer much,
but what can self do???

if i cant have you,
i do hope that there will be a better one for you,
i do hope that you will have more happiness
with the one that are destined for you.