Something to ponder..

Many times in our life, we compared ourselves with other and we always feel others are better than us. Weather they are taller than us, have a smoother skin than us, look more beautiful than us and many more. The more we compare, the more we feel we are imperfect and there are to some extent we started to blame our parents for failing to give us the traits that our friends or brother and sis have. Does the thinking of actually our parents have already give us the best they can pop up in our mind? Although sometime what they give us or what we inherit from them is not what we want but it’s doesn’t mean they haven’t give us the best they can?
Think about it, some of us might blame our parents for given us either too small or too big eyes. But do we wonder, even though it’s was either too big or small; our eyes are perfect for it can see the world. What the use of beautiful eyes, if it can’t be used to look at the world. If all of us have this type of thinking that is even though our body, our organ, or our senses is not the way we want it to be but it was working perfectly. Aren’t it’s a blessing. Isn’t it what we should thank our parents for? But how many of us actually thank our parents for given us the good conditioned body? Instead we keep on comment how imperfect we are and this might indirectly hurt their heart. Think about it, if all of us have the same look, can we count ourselves unique. It’s the different that made us a unique person in the world. For you can’t find another person that look exactly like you. They might look similar but not the same.
These thought came to me when I visit a handicap home today. From there I learned that even though my mom doesn’t give me a pretty look but she has given me a great or should I say a perfect working body. I don’t need a wheelchair for I can use my leg to walk, I doesn’t need to take medicine and undergone medical treatment, for she have given me a perfect organ system. And if I do have to undergone such suffering, it’s was my own fault for failing to take care what I have. Even though I’m not a genius at least my brain was working for me. I can think using it. Maybe the imperfect that I think I have is indeed perfect after all. Why compared in the first place? Instead of compare its better we take the time to accept and thanks our parents and god for given us what we have today.
From there I also learned that our life is very fragile. It might gone any minute, any time. We never know what would happened to us the next minute so its very important for us to appreciate and love every minute in our life. One of the uncle words really made me think. That time we was visiting 2 handicap person that are bedridden and one of them have fall asleep. The uncle tells us that during our small time or during our infant time, our parents used to watch us sleep. It’s make me wonder have I seriously take care to look at how my parents sleep at night. Have I care about them like how they care for me. Have I love them deep enough like how they love me?
Well a trip to the handicap home is really worth my time for it have teach me a lot of things, sometime things that I take for granted. I have learned to love myself as who I am and love the person especially my parents when I still have the time. All that they have done to me is impossible I can give back but I can always do something to make their days.

The most enjoying and playful day

Well today is the day that can be counted quite memorable for me. It’s a day where I get to play under the rain. Crazy right. Well in the morning, I with sis ( M.L and S.L ) go to dkp to online. Sadly, my laptop got problem and can’t get connect to the wireless. Till now also have that problem. Haiz. Stupid laptop. Or do you think it’s the owner who are stupid? Hahaha… Then around one something like that we wait for shuttle bus to go to one borneo mall. We go there to buy some cooking ingredient for dinner. I suggest to cook and so I was the chef. But in the reality was I really the chef?? Hahahaha .. My dear friend, I guess you should know the answer la. Hahahaha .. fong theng that you know don’t know how to cook wan ma so its quite impossible I was the chef. With big sis and third sis to help me to prepared the ingredient, and the most important part is second sis who help me to put the necessity "perasa" to make the soup yummy. Hahahaha.. with second sis help, a tasteless soup turn out to be very yummy.. when drink time, got home feeling cause the taste was more or less same like the soup that my mom cook. Look like I still got a lot of things to learn..
Turn back to the time before dinner, its was the time when big sis and me go back to hostel. Its was raining, and none of us bring an umbrella ( I don’t even own an umbrella) and we make a very fun decision that is to walk back to hostel under the rain, without umbrella. Sound crazy to some of you all right, but its was fun. Walking back under the rain, playing, if not now there would not be any chance left as we grow older as each day pass by. We get wet but happy… hahahaha … thanks sis for accompany me doing all this crazy stuff…. Hahahaha.. Such a memorable day.

a thoughtful day

many day in our life, we know something is wrong, we knew we shouldn't do it, we knew the consequences that will happened if we do it but trust me or not, in the end we would still do the things we tell ourself that we shouldnt do. why?? why?? why we still do things that we know its wrong. is it our rebellious heart that motivate us to do what is considered wrong or is it just our curiousity to know weather the consequences that would happened is like what we expect to? i really wonder... if anyone know why, please tell me...
sometime we do want to change when we know our action or habit is wrong, but sometime it just seems too difficult to change. we do try but the change wouldn't last long. automatically we will change back. sometime it's even confusing. we dont think our action is wrong but people around us would say its wrong. should we listen and change. if we do so we lost our real self. if we didnt listen, hmmm, maybe what other people say is true. have we all wonder, that in this world, many people loves and always encourage other to be their ownself but if their ownself is different from what the society expect them to be they would say that its wrong and must change. but do you all wondered, if everyone in this world live life like everyone does, what is the difference from one to another. isn't everyone is special and different? hmmm.. good point to think...
today is really a day where i think about what i really want. what i really hope for. what can i really acheive but it look like today was a day i think nonesense.... all my thinking dont even link. hahahaha..... nothing much to do so just anggap i crap in here la..... hahahaha.. wish you all a good day

New Year In Sabah....

Everybody celebrate new year with their families , at their home, cause its a day or season to update and close the gap among families members. 2009 is the year i celebrated my first chinesse new year not at home... How was it feel???... i also dont know.. thought will be very lonely but its seems ok.. quite happy also.. ( MOM MIGHT KILL ME FOR THIS) still happy eventhough not at home... hahahaha... well on the new year eve, we got a reunion steambot... my friends prepared a lots of food, we even got steam fish... hahaha.. but i just come back and eat nia cause follow another friend go out shopping... hehehehehe.....
the food was yummy and we finish the steambot exactly at 12 midnight ( include cleaning up la),... have a new year bath and continue to cook porridge using hp...
first day of new year very memorable cause thats the day i lost my voice, first time in my 20 years.. know how it feel to be unable to talk and the fun to communicate to others using words. you write to them but they answer you verbally... hehehehe....
second day not bad... because of on the first day no voice can not go out kai kai, second day i ganti balik.hahahaha... sis (m.l) go with me. we walk from hostel to engineering school bus stop, i estimate around 20-25 minute like that la.. wait for around 20 minute like that still no shuttle bus, then we walk down to another bus stop which is at the front gate of uni. wait for a while still no bus so what to do... use leg to walk there lo.. estimate 5-10 minute walk from uni to one borneo mall.. if walk fast ma 5 minute lo... hehehe...
we jalan jalan at the mall before we take another free shuttle bus to go town... hahahaa.... arrive at town, we shop for around 2 - 3 place ( mall) la before buying some necessity and have dinner .. then we take a bus to go back uni.
third and fourth day more or less spent in the hostel at my friends room( the whole new year week was spent in my friends room).. got lunch and dinner that being cook by them... yummy... at least a lot better than cafe food..
on the sat if i not mistaken, go out with m.l to buy cooking ingredients to cook chicken soup... where both of us successfully finish up 3 tin of mushroom... hahaha... that time really got a bit phobia eat mushroom.. the soup was delicious and we steam egg for dinner... our egg turn out to be too salty and we play poker to finish it.. the person who loose must eat one piece.... hahahaha.. memorable.....
that all la how i spent my new year in sabah.. sorry no pict....

OH GOD !!!!!!!!!! I LEARNED MY LESSON

Oh god , i have learned a very important lesson today . I should never procastinate . you see , i arrive in megalab before noon , planing to do my assignment , but i didnt do it . i surf the web , do this and that . the momment i wanna pay attention and do my assignment , guess what happened ..... the microsoft programme got problem.... OMG.. why this happened to me....... WHY??? If i know earlier i shouldnt close the last window of that programme... now how ar..... a really big lesson i learned in never procastinate....... God.. Please help me by letting me finish the assignment by today... please....


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BLOOD DONATION @ wawasan square , sabah

Are you all reading the correct words or am i out of my mind... Friends .. do you still remember this scene ; f.theng , are you going to take that X suntikan . No la i scared of needle la , I successfully pakat with my dad to not given his permission for the injection and the list goes on..... so on the 17 / 8 / 08 , what have i done....
where is all my fear , where have they gone..... today is the day where i know what is my blood type and i successfully donate blood.... weird right , my friend... the person that you know that so damn scared of needle , going up and down , finding ways to advoid injection will actually donate blood....
i heard from many people , donate blood very painfull wan , the needle very big wan , and so on.... but on that day where i have experience myself only i know the truth... hahahahaha....
i was very scared at that time , my blood pressure quite high the first time the doctor check but it goes down to normal during second check...
i was the fifth person to donate blood at that time , and the nurse who can see my nervours face at that time just give me to donate the smallest pack that is 50 ml. 'First try' the nurse say . i take the packet in a tray , and go to the bed.. i got special layanan , they cover me (my legs la) with blanket.. others dont have wan... lolz... i face another side , not daring to see... i feel they tie something on my arms and ask me to grab a small hard plastic bottle... i can feel a bit pain la , like the pain when i take hipatitis B injection , then got one temple teacher say ok already.. my blood flow out liao.. only that time i know oh.. its not pain after all... she ask me to play around with the bottle also.. like grab hard and slowly 'lepaskan' and like that la... i play for a while and i manage to ask senior weather is it pain or not when the pull out the needle... they just smile and say not pain wan... after sometime , the nurse walk to my side , my face was on the another side all the time , not daring to see the blood and needle la... then i can feel she touch my hand , the next thing i feel is she take out the ribbon and she ask me to rest for around 5 minute like that before i come down.. hey , they already take out the needle and stick a goth on the needle place.. and i dont feel anything.... hahahahahahaha..... i rest on the bed lo , after a while i come down , wear my shoes , and sit at the side . the temple teacher ( woman ) touch my hand see its cold or not and tell me i must drink the pack of milo that being given.... after some resting , i walk around the mall with a senior to ask people to join the campaign.... lolz.....
later around 1.30 like that they bring us back to the hostel , where i get my good sleep the hold days... lolz....
Guess i became more and more brave in sabah... my first and definetly a memorable experience in donating blood.... hopefully the small pack of blood can save people... hopefully....

Family Day @ E ( Karambunai Resort )

Last Saturday on the 9 / 8 / 08 , my hostel or what we called kampung E organized a family day at karambunai resort . Because I want to continue to stay at the hostel , and to get a passport cop , I sacrifice RM20 for that activities . The activities was scheduled to start at 7 am so i plan to wake up at 6.30 la , but last minute , which is early in the morning , at 6 am , we got an urgent call that the bus will leave at 6.30 am . want or don't want , i must leave the comfort of the bed and take my bath . what a cold and refreshing water . It can made me shivering the moments i walk out from the bath room . finish taking my bath , i need to pack my bag , why??? Cause i too lazy to pack the night before . after finish packing which was around 6.25 am like that , i rush down to wait for the bus in the cafeteria . but what a disappointed scene i get . just very few people there only , so the morning call which say the bus will bertolak at 6.30 am is not true . what to do , i cant go back to my room and continue my sleep so i go to buy food to eat lo .i finish my fried rice , which was my breakfast at around 6.45am and the bus still not yet bertolak . it was around 6.50 like that only people started to line up for the bus and what time the bus came?? exactly 7 am . lolz.... the trip was around half an hour from the university . the scenery not bad , the sea quite clean , the place no rubbish ( at least i didn't see any ) . we still got some time to explore around cause we arrive quite early . after some photo shooting here and there , and when everyone arrive already we start the programme. i was in the black team and i join treasure hunt . we run from one side to another to find clue . the game end at noon .
the funniest part is in the afternoon where we are allow to play water . first time in the history of my life i canoe . and without a life jacket?? why i didn't wear one ?? lolz... the answer sure made you all laugh till stomach ache ..
i cant fit to buckle the life jacket . i sit in the middle while my roommate sit at my back and my friend sit in front of me ... it was hard to go the way you want to . at first , when we start time we just made a big round and not successfully to go across.. So we start again , this time we successfully to cross the river but we have difficulties to come back . .... and our canoe masuk a lot of water , so have to come down and pour the water out.....
i guess we go round and round trying to find a right way to row back to shore but we just couldn't.... we canoe until its nearly time to finish the programme , and we are still in the middle of the paya . then , got one gentlemen walk to our side ( the water is not very deep , you can actually walk across ) and push us all the way to shore... lolz...... and one more thing , karambunai resort got a lot of starfish... you can very easily find one.....
it's time for the result , our team in treasure hunt got first but from the bottom (at least we try our best already ) but overall our team managed to get first runner up..... lolz.....the trip is fun for its the first time i really go and play at the seaside but tired...